Fandom isn’t always positive, as Halsey has painfully learned.
The Grammy-nominated singer, 29, took to Tumblr on July 30 to share her disheartening experiences with fans who have shown negativity following her recent return to music, leading her to “regret coming back.”
“My own fans are hands down meaner to me than any other people on the planet. Not speaking for all of you, of course,” wrote Halsey. “But it used to be just a minority that were awful to me and now it seems like a majority have only stuck around to chime in occasionally with their opinion of how much they hate me or how awful I am.”
The musician, who uses she/they pronouns, expressed the difficulty of engaging in a space “completely devoid of any kindness, sympathy, patience; or to be honest human decency. Especially after years of hiding from the interactions for fear that this EXACT thing would happen.”
“I don’t know man. I almost lost my life,” continued Halsey, who recently revealed they were diagnosed with systemic lupus erythematosus and a rare T-cell lymphoproliferative disorder.
“I am not gonna do anything that doesn’t make me happy anymore. I can’t spiritually afford it,” wrote the “Graveyard” hitmaker.
Reflecting on their health struggles, Halsey added, “When I got sick all I could think about was getting better so I could come back and be a part of THIS again, but I don’t even know what this is anymore and I want to crawl in a hole and I regret coming back.”
In a follow-up post, the New Jersey native shared that she was traveling for a “PET scan” and “uploading” the “stripped” version of her latest single, “Lucky,” while writing the Tumblr posts.
“Because this is the insane irony my life has become,” wrote Halsey. “I’m a person. Not a character in a music video.”
“Lucky” was released last week alongside a music video, marking the second single from the musician’s upcoming album following “The End,” which dropped in June.
Halsey informed fans of her systemic lupus erythematosus and T-cell lymphoproliferative disorder diagnoses shortly after releasing “The End.”
“In 2022, I was first diagnosed with Lupus SLE and then a rare T-cell lymphoproliferative disorder. Both of which are currently being managed or in remission; and both of which I will likely have for the duration of my life,” she said at the time.
“After 2 years, I’m feeling better and I’m more grateful than ever to have music to turn to,” added Halsey. “I can’t wait to get back where I belong: With you all 🤍 Singing and screaming my heart out.”
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